Michelle
a.k.a. Mich, Clueless, Michlet
years of existence: 19 going on 20
school:SMPS, SMSS, SAJC, NTU
church: St. Andrew's Cathedral
cca: now hall stuff, previously: Council! dance and touch rug
preoccupied with: praying, TALKING, reading the Bible, serving, eating, SLEEPING, blogging(not really), watching tv, watching movies, sighing, laughing, crying, smiling, making funny faces and poses, going crazy, reading, listening to music, star-gazing, taking pictures, dancing, playing touch rug or soccer

*loves:
{JESUS!
{my church
{my cell group
{blue
{babies
{dogs/puppies
{hearts
{rainbows
{butterflies
{horses
{dolphins
{food
{waterfalls
{stars
{smilies
{family
{friends
{vanilla
{strawberries
{apples
{kiwi
{bananas
{coke
{ice-cream
{movies
{pictures

*loathes:
{spiders
{mosquitoes
{pineapples
{sudden loud sounds
like thunder, fireworks, super loud dog barks,
party poppers, balloon bursts, etc.
{things like bungee jumps
{scary movies
(what can i say? i'm weak-hearted)
{flies

*Get really close to God

Frenz/Pals/Fellows/Mates

tabitha}
vanessa yeo}
clarissa}
charmaine}
kartik}
andre}
tanya}
jiaxin}
amylia}
jonathan}
alex}
ben}
carolyn}
> liling}
mycellgrp}

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hmm... wad if i were to die tmr?
my life is short.
my life has been boring.
how wuld i be remembered?
i hope i wuld be remembered for my cheerfulness.
wuld mani ppl turn up for my funeral?
i hope mani of course.
wad songs wuld they play?
"amazing grace" and "here i am to worship" slowly.
who wuld turn up for my funeral?
my family, my friends.
how wuld i be buried?
by cremation n my ashes thrown into the sea.
wad wuld ur family put on ur grave?
beloved daughter and friend.
a good and faithful servant of God.
trustee of Jesus.

another philosophy of Michelle:
all of us are like candles. covering the floor. Jesus is the lighter. the word of God the flame. those that are lighted are suppose to pass it on to those unlighted. amongst the unlighted, the lighted would be the brightest. yet it needs another lighted candle nearby, lest it's flame goes off. the wind is the devil. preventing us from passing the flame to others n oso to cause us to lose our flames.
"14You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." -Matthew 5:14-16
"12When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." -John 8:12

So brothers and sisters, stand as high as you can so that you can light up the room and pass on the flame too.

 -when are you coming back? ;

This post shall b long since i'll b away for a long time or this may b my last. Okok... i'm not gonna lik die or anithin... i mean of coz i'll die... one day... sooner or later... Yup... argh! having so mani interruptions by ppl lik Tanya n Vanessa. :( haha. k.

people come, people go.
be it for a moment or a second.
(Yay! my maid juz cooked steamed corn)
people are born, people die.
all in a split second.
never know when you're next.
no one knows how many days more they have.
the very next day could be their last.
time passes by slowly.
nothing makes sense.
the beat of my heart pulsates faster and faster.
the air is still.
my breathing intensifies.
my vision starts blurring.
my face feels hot.
my chest hurts.
my toes feel numb.
suddenly they give way.
i feel like i'm floating on air.
but soon later i'm on the ground.
i hit with a thud.
i open my mouth to cry.
to scream.
to shout.
anything.
but nothing.
my throat hurts.
my back hurts too.
but my head hurts the most.
soon i can't remember.
i must have fainted.
(Tanya just told me that her fren knoes Mr Ng's son)
i opened my eyes.
i wasn't on the floor.
i was on my bed.
everything's dark.
i'm breathing hard.
but i'm not hurting anymore.
was it real?
or was the fall just a dream?

by Michelle Tan.
entitled Strange happenings. the brackets are not actually included and this is fiction. i made it all up.

 -when are you coming back? ;

This is the song which i hav stuck in my mind recently:

All I Ask Of You
No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here
Nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here
With you beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Say you love me every winter morning
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe
No one will find you
Your fears are far behind you
All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you
Always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

Then say you'll share with me one love
One lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you
Here beside you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Christine that's all I ask of you

Say you'll share with me one love one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me
Each night each morning
Say you love me (You know I do)
Love me
That's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me
That's all I ask of you

P.S. In case you're wondering where this is from, it's from The Phantom Of The Opera. Sung by the characters Christine and Raoul.

 -when are you coming back? ;

last friday, i went swimming again with Tanya and Jiaxin. it was fun. but it started rainin. despite the drizzle, we continued to swim. and we even swam in the baby pool with no one else there. we kept throwing our goggles here n there. haha. den we reclined at the steps n lay there for awhile b4 deciding to bathe. aftrtt, we went to Tanya's hse to eat our lunch. afterwhich we walked to j8 n walked arnd there. we were lik a bunch of crazy gals stalkin ppl. we stalked another smss gal, this guy at the supermarket n a couple hu i'm not suppose to mention abt. haha. aftrtt, we were all veri moody and walked quietly, on our own, to Tanya's hse. it was kinda coz Tanya n i had a tiff. but it's all cleared up now. tt was friday.

i feel so proud of myself. i went all by myself to the ICA building yesterday to make my IC. hmm. while i was there, i saw so mani guys wif their moms! haha! n there i was, a gal, alone. well, i guess my independence could b due to circumstances such as me living so far away from anywhere. i take at least 1hr(plus or minus) to get anywhere in singapore on my own. n because my dad uses the car alot n my mum cant drive n both my parents work so wheneva i nid to go somewhere, i cant get my parents to bring me. unless it's during the weekend or during lunchtime.

 -when are you coming back? ;

k. now yesterdae.

i had to take a cab frm d main road outside my busstop to my mrt station coz i left my hse too late n if i left my hse too late, i wuld hav been extremely late. so i reached there onli slightly late.

k so when we were there, that place was rather familiar. i knew of coz tt i had been ther during my church youth camp last year. d shoes r really tight n i din bring long enuf socks to protect my legs frm d rim of d shoes so i had to buy frm there another extra pair. k so when i was on d ice at first, i had lost my touch. so i had to hold d side for awhile b4 getting used to it. hmm come to think of it, i'm quite lousy since this was my 3rd or 4th time ice-skating n i still hav yet to master d skill fully while clarissa n charmaine hu not been on d ice at least once mastered more than i hav. haha. k so while we were there, i met my church fren sylvia. funny how it looks easy to ice-skate but it really isnt. u've gotta take sometime to get used to it. k so when we were there, hmm i pointed out this guy hu looked at first not bad-looking but aftr awhile wasnt tt to clarissa n charmaine. they saed he looked lik a sec 3 but they think he's sec 2. aniwae, he was quite pro compared to me. he helped some of his frens to ice-skate, teachin them n holdin onto them. haha. charmaine bumped into him a few times, n d girl he was wif grabbed onto me once. it was SO funny! haha. oh n there was this grp of jap/korean-lookalikes. d guys were really pro. they kept zooming past ppl. which was quite scary coz they came so close n in d next moment they were opp in the ring. a few of the guys kept tryin to pull one of the girls' hand. which was as tho they were flirting wif her. i guess it could b coz she was quite pretty n better lookin den some of the other girls in d grp. well, we ate our lunch there. cup noodles. haha. the place was super packed. i fell down 4-5 times. haha. once, when i was skating wif clarissa, she fell down, n i fell on top of her. haha. n another time, when we both lost our balance, we ended up "hugging each other". d ppl arnd us laughed n we were embarassed. haha. aftrtt we kept telling each other tt we were straight n had no designs on each other. haha. charmaine fell d most. she has multiple bruises on her legs now. i feel quite bad now coz even tho i fell down too, i got away clean of bruises. chunmeng was super pro. okok. she was d pro-est amongst us. she onli fell once n it was coz charmaine pulled her down. d way she ice-skates is so graceful n swift. actually she had lessons b4 tt so tt's y she's so pro. many a times i found myself holding onto the side coz i was too afraid to fall. i guess there's a lesson to learn in evrythin. i've learnt to take chances. yup. k tt's all. i shall write abt today another time.

 -when are you coming back? ;

hey... let me tell u more abt wad i've been doing these past 3 daes aftr d exams...

The end-of-years were generally manageable but some of which were pretty difficult, thus my future is unsure.haha.

On wed, aftr our last paper, my e maths paper 1 which happened to b quite easy except for a few qns, Tanya n i went swimming! Hmm, at abt 1+ which isn't a veri advisable time as d sun is burning hot n we were warned to avoid the aftrnoon sun coz we might get skin cancer. We went to the Bishan Public pool or wadeva u call it... we sat down, applied abit of tanning oil n laid on d bench awhile. All this time, we were being watched by some of d men hu were also sun tanning there. there was this one particular guy, tanya shld remember too, hu was in the pool kept inching closer n closer to us n was watching us lik a hawk. hmm. of coz he din do anythin in d end. haha. oh! when we first arrived there in our uniforms, there were 2 guys in d big pool hu kept lookin at us as well which was quite freaky. we went to change n were quite reluctant to step out of d changin room in our swimsuits. of coz we did. hmm.. now i think i look relatively darker. haha. i do hav a slight tan line. tanya has it worse tho. she's blacker than she was before. k tt was on wed. aftr tt i went to tanya's hse n then we walked arnd j8 n i went home aftr tt. yupz. yesterday's wuld b mentioned in d next post.

 -when are you coming back? ;

sry for not blogging for so long. but exams were taking a toll on me. now tt it's over, i can finally relax till tues when d results r out. on wed, i went swimming, yesterday, i went ice-skating, todae, i went swimming again.
i'm on an exercising spree. haha! now my thigh muscles r aching. hai~ i'm so unfit.

Another of michelle's philosophies:
Life is like football... We are like the players/football teams.Our friends shld be like our loyal fans. Alwaes cheering us on, supporting us even if we don't win d league, even if we don't score the winning goal. Isn't football like that? Ppl don't support their fav teams juz becoz they're the winners right? And in life there are ups and downs. On an encouraging note, there'll alwaes b ppl around caring for us, support us all the way so don't give up. Try your best. Train extra hard. Have consistent trainings.

Never keep the fear of losing the game keep you from playing it.
No one is perfect.
Yupz.

 -when are you coming back? ;